My apologies for not sharing anything lately even though I said I would. It’s been a crazy week and while that has mostly been good it’s not really ended well. I just lost one of the best friends I’ve ever had. Sure he wasn’t a human being but it still hurts.

I’ve been sitting on this picture for a while now without really knowing what to say about it but I think I do now. There are times when you walk down a path thinking that you know for certain how or where you want to go only to find out once you’ve started that you have absolutely no clue how to proceed further. You have the end in sight and you kind of know what your goal is but there are problems along the way and there’s a good chance that they’ve encompassed you and that’s all you can focus on. I’ve been thinking a lot about the future lately and it is scary! Uncertainty is really scary but as I look upon the past I’m reassured. Why? Because I see how God has been working all along. I think one of the things that God is trying to teach me this year is to trust Him more even in the most trying of times. Every single time it’s always been something good happening at the very last minute and that does go a long way in teaching me a lesson. We don’t know the entire picture and that’s OK. there this quote by Douglas Adams in The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy that is quite poignant, “We demand rigidly defined areas of doubt and uncertainty.”

It’s OK not know exactly how to proceed. It’s OK not having things in complete control. It’s OK walking down a path that has problems but it’s only OK if you look above. It’s only OK if you look to God for His help. Only then will it actually lead to the peak you have in sight.

I have no idea why God decided that Dixie had served his purpose but the more I think about the future and the things ahead (that I’m aware of), the more I’m reassured that God’s timing is perfect. Of course that doesn’t take away from the fact that there’s a cavity that’s been created but it’s reassuring and kind of makes it easier to deal with.

Although I wish I were there to say goodbye, the weird thing is the last time I was home I had this weird feeling that I would never see him again. I regret pushing aside that feeling now as I realise that was what I should have listened to but I look back fondly on the great memories I’ve had because of Dixie and how having him and watching him grow and growing alongside him has taught me so much. As I think about it all I can’t help by thank God for bringing that precious little creature to live with us and bring that little extra joy in our lives when he was still there.

To you Dixie. My friend. My buddy. I will always miss you. Always and forever. Goodbye!